I am actually really glad to be reviewing all of my old entries and deleting the ones I don't approve of. No one wants to hear the thoughts of a fifteen-year-old girl when it comes to hooking up with boys and such things.

But I thought this entry was actually funny. It was probably less than two weeks before my first kiss, I think. My horrible preoccupation with getting male attention in the past few years is quite disgusting, as well as other changes that came upon me.

I talked to Lily on the phone today because I am pretty sure I have a UTI and I know that she's experienced those before. Most of what she talked about consisted of her hair and things about people and what she did yesterday. For once, I am past such conversations. I am capable of them, but there's nothing engaging about them. No wonder I was so unfulfilled. I think now I have hope, but I still wish for more permanence. Everything seems fleeting.

Also, I am very thankful that I have stayed friends with Heather/Jessica/Courtney/Lyahn, plus the addition of the other Ladz. That may have kept me from becoming too vapid.

My mind feels blank today. It may have been the small amount of weed I smoked yesterday. Poor decision; I should have kept up my anti-drug streak. I will recover though.

I wonder if I am losing my dress sense.

I love you.

I could just tickle your belly. Dink dink.

I like the word ephemeral.
I also like it when you write things on here.